The best kind of cookie.

I needed this today. After a long day of staring at these Eurovision magazine interview questions I now feel ready to answer them. In the end you’re either going to love me or hate me. That’s okay because I know I’m being myself and that I’m wonderful for it.

The lucky numbers are of course my birthday and age. :) Yeah this was meant to be mine. (7-14 my birthday and 23 my age haha!)

Just Me

My mind is racing at super sonic speed right now. I have so many things I want to write and say but I feel like I should keep it short. I have had so much great news in the past few days concerning the Eurovision contest. What a scary and honorable thing it is to be even in the running of this prestigious contest. Television stations and newspapers are writing about "Me." I'm an American coming into to their territory and going into one of their contests. Mind you that I wrote and recorded all of my new music in Europe...it's still such an honor because I'm an outsider. I was thinking a lot about how I feel about that...and my answer to you is that I am not an outsider. I came to Europe for a reason, fate to me by the hand and led me there. I'm connected to Europe and the people there especially all of my dear friends in Switzerland. Being on the Coole Schule tour was one of the best experiences I've ever had, I have never felt more connected and accepted by a group of people before. So me an outsider? No way. The Eurovision contest is right where I belong. So I am hoping all of you accept me as the silly American as I am, because all I am being is "Just Me."

I love all of you so much. Thank you thank you thank you for the support and encouraging words. You guys are the ones that keeps me pushing and dreaming and always wanting more out of life.
A BIG thank you goes out to 20 minuten and The Eurovision Times...thanks for writing about little old controversial me. You guys are badass!

XOXO
Sarah
(And for all of you that didn't know my song "Just Me" is the song that was submitted!)

Don't...

Don’t hold strong opinions about things you don’t understand.

Devil woman.

Tried to sleep and failed. This insomnia keeps getting worse. Oh well more time to work. I guess Santa gave me my present early this year when I asked for more hours in the day. He granted me the gift of no sleep.
I just restored my account today on Formspring…not sure why. I use to always think its lame because there is always some coward behind the computer screen waiting to ask messed up questions. Today was the first time I received such a lame statement…. It wasn’t even a Question.

Q: Posing with a cross and dressing like a Devil is costing you a one way ticket to Hell. 

A: Wow. Really?? First off I have never dressed up as a Devil and posing with a cross isn’t sending me anywhere. Who are you to judge me? God himself? I highly doubt it.

Again I don’t own anyone on this planet anything. Haters gonna hate..always. Enjoy my Devil worshiping pics below. I worked with the amazing Laura Dark in Columbus on these. She is a one of a kind woman and somehow I really think we’re related. :)

Okay back to work on this thing called sleep.

Oh hell yesss!

25 to life.

I went to bed super early tonight (early meaning 10pm) and now I’m up at 2am. My little head is racing with thoughts as usual. Sometimes I let people get to me more than I should, but it takes me only a moment to realize I don’t own an explaination to anyone. If they are that pretentious to think I would spend anytime writing such to them…they are wrong. My time and worth are precious. I’m not about to let any idiots let me think otherwise. I work too hard and for too long and have seen way too much.So…Don’t be a silly head!

And what i mean is that i will no longer let you control me
so you better hear me out this much you owe me
i gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while Ive stayed
thankful all the way this is how i f**king get repaid.

Oh Eminem you stole the words right from my purdy little mouth.
Okay I’m going to bed….I have to get up super early for a shoot tomorrow with Dawn. Yes, it is going to be epic.

Me & you

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we’re really not that different, me and you.

Finally free.

Most of you know and most of you don't know that about a month ago I was able to quit my part time job. I have been dreaming of that day ever since I was on Idol. Money was always an issue....never enough. Is it ever? Finally I can now concentrate on all of my artistic ventures. ...my music, writing, modeling and whatever else I have dreamed up in my little head. The music is what brings me to life and I finally feel fully alive knowing I'm getting even closer. A few days ago I found out that I am in the final running of Eurovision Song contest. Soon the contest will be open to the public and then you guys can vote....then if I'm lucky enough I will be on the televised part. It's a pretty good thing I believe in myself and I know great things are to come.


I've been shooting a lot lately but I haven't really posted anything. I guess in my heart I just wanted a break from things. I wanted to fully enjoy my first month off and take some time for myself and family. Now I have an energy like you wouldn't believe.

Here's a shoot I did in East Palestine, Ohio. It was a very interesting shoot...how can such a beautiful place inhabit such ugly things? Dawn Derbyshire did the photos, as always she did an incredible job.

All I did today was write....

Sometimes I just want to kick the shit out of some people and say words that they have never heard before. That's not who I am and that's not what I'm about. I'm just going to write, write, write and create, create, create and all that will be left is my pity for you.

I hate people that prey.

I love people with soul.

Lauren Loncar

I like to dream, but I like to make things happen.

I've been pretty absent that past two 6 weeks, but that was on purpose. I've taken a long needed vacation to see my family and to catch things up at home. I went without seeing my family for about a year and a half, and it was really doing something to me emotionally. I now feel fully rejuvenated and ready to get back to work. Damn, I'm really missing my work. That's because things are going better than ever, actually the best they could be at this point. I'm just so happy with my life right now, everything seems just right. Since my time off I've been writing so much down....so I need to get back into that studio and create! Next month I'll be traveling to Switzerland, Denmark and Germany.


I've been reading a lot of quotes lately about "Dreaming" and being a "Dreamer"....This always confuses me. It confuses me because sooo many people have dreams and goals, but that's as far as they go. They just become thoughts and hopes. I rather do. I rather make things happen. You'll have to kill me before I ever stop. The good thing is, the people around m realize this and work their ass off for me in return. Please don't confuse this....I thinking dreaming and being a dreamer is GREAT, just as long as you do the work that comes along with it ;-)

I'm going to start posting as much as possible now because writing is just therapeutic to me and it gets me in touch with soooo much of you. So many of you want to know whats going on and what I've been up to. Sorry about the unanswered messages in my mailbox. I still try to answer as many as possible but it just gets to be a bit overwhelming. So I'll post a bunch about my puppies, family, new shoes and of course bundles about the music.

I love you all so very much.

Sarah

Where my gay's at?

Over the weekend I got to swim in Zurich lake. When I say swim, I mean for a mere 30 seconds. Haha! The water was colder than ice...mountain water. It was such a beautiful day full of sunshine...we had a cook out BBQ and I somehow managed to mess up the kabob veggies :-p, I am so not a cook. I will always take up an opportunity to hang out with Andy, Chris and their friends. Hopefully I'll get to do it again before I leave for home....! I almost forgot the best part of the weekend...this cute little Dog Leo would not stop kissing my face! He kissed it nearly for 10 mins!! When he started to move to my boobs I made him stop....he was getting a little to frisky. He would be perfect for Hollywood. Miss Hollywood and Mister Leonardo Dicaprio. :-D


The tour is still going very well, its a very tight schedule and long hours, but I have so much fun with these kids! It makes me miss my brothers and sister even more though. I haven't seen my family in almost a year because of all the traveling, but next month I'll be taking a looong holiday to go see them. I cannot wait. :-D

This morning a really funny thing happen....I'm always making mistakes with words and for some reason I always choose the worst option. This boy asked me  "Do you like the gays?" I was like "Of  course! They always have the best time and they are great to go shopping with. But sexual orientation doesn't matter at all to me, it's whats inside that counts. " Everyone again was so confused and then they started to laugh really hard....That's when the teacher explained that he meant "gaming." The real question was "Do you like the games?" Hahaha, but I think its completely understandable how I got that confused! I could seriously not stop laughing, and the boy was such a great sport about it. :-)

I'm a little car sick right now because we're high in the mountains, so I'm going to relax a bit and sip this diet coke before  my next gig. Ahhhhh, so refreshing.


xoxo
Sarah

I'm sure you all know by now my love of sweets. I seriously have the biggest sweet tooth in the entire world. This huge candy store in Europe called "Lollipop" is amazing. They have soooo many different kinds of candy then we do back home! I love it! When I called my husband to tell him about this amazing candy store he simply said "I bet you got three pounds didn't you, Just like  you do when your home." And he was right...I got 1 kilo = 3 pds! Haha he knows me too well :-) Again...I just dont understand why my boobs photograph so big! Seriously they are NOT that big!! How I dare to dream! Thanks to Oliver who took the pics....hahaha!

Six feet under.

I'm sitting outside of my hotel room watching a beautiful storm overtake Zurich. I really love storms, they bring me peace and the wind feels amazing in this hot summer weather. Every time I'm alone traveling I get to know myself a lot more. You don't realize how much you've grown up until you start reacting to things differently. The petty bullshit we use to deal with just isn't important anymore. The past is left to the past. Of course there are always exceptions where people hold on to whatever grudge they can, because to them that's all they have. Let's make this world a but better and let go of the past. Life is too damn short...we should always look for the positive first. So this is my post to say....MY past is buried. Every lie that was ever told to me, every broken promise, every hurtful word....ALL OF THE BULLSHIT is being buried. This is one funeral I won't mourn.

xoxo
Sarah

The pictures below are taken by once again by the amazing Dawn Deryshire.

I want to personally congratulate John Gordon and Manfred/Mette Zähringer from Iceberg Records for winning the Eurovision Song Contest with "Satellite" performed by Lena Meyer-Landrut!! I am so proud and honored to work with you guys.

Eurovision is one of the biggest music contests in Europe. It compares to like an American Idol! Over the years he Eurovision contest has found amazing stars such as Celion Dion and ABBA.  How Eurovision works is each member Country submits a song to be performed live on TV and then casts votes for the other countries' songs to determine the most popular song in the competition. The show has been running since 1956!!! Making it one of the most longest running shows in he world. To read more about the contest go here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eurovision_Song_Contest

John Gordon and Jodie Frost wrote and produced the song so this is a really big win for them!! I am so honored and feel so lucky to be working with John, everything we ever write/record together always turns out amazing. One of first songs I've ever written with him was "Absolutely Nothing." Can't wait to work with him again in September! Go to YouTube and listen to "Satellite" performed by Lena Meyer-Landrut. It's a really great song and Lena is so cute! I wish her as well nothing but the best in her career.

Anyways....the entire tour has been going super well. The days are very long and it's a lot of hard work....it's nothing I didn't ask for ;-)! I've gotten some really funny questions too, such as "Do you like sport in bed?" and "Are you somewhat of crazy??" Hahaha! Yes, yes I am somewhat of crazy. Thank you for noticing!

xoxo
Sarah

Here are some pictures I just recievd from Pat Mansor, he's another great photographer in Pittsburgh. He is just about to graduate school and i'm sure he has a very bright future ahead!

Turbulence blows.

I was never so happy to land in Zurich then ever before. I needed a good break of some nonsense back in Pennsylvania and also the turbulence was terrible this time! Usually I can pop a anxiety pill and be fine....but no no no there had to Storms. So that meaning I got absolutely no sleep, that goes for the people on the plane that were sitting around me (I was a crying mess!). As soon as we landed Oliver was there waiting to pick me up and he said those three magic words...."You want Starbucks??" Haha already my day got so much better.

At Starbucks Oliver explained the game plan for the month I will be here. Let's just say there won't be much free time! My Swiss tour starts very early tomorrow morning. I'm really excited because last year was such a success, this year will be even better. I'll have plenty of clothes to choose from because I packed two huge suitcases full of junk AND I forgot that last time I left three huge bags stuffed full of clothes. My only worry? How in the world am I going to get this crap home?!  I might as well Start a walk in closet here too.

One of the BEST parts so far was finding out that my FAVORITEST (not a word I know...) Photographer from Pittsburgh got her image that she took of me in a magazine! It's a HUGE picture too! I think she is one of the most talented photographers I ever met and she deserves huge success. Hopefully together we can get that :-).

I'm going to call it an early night because I have a lot to do tomorrow! I miss you family, Mark and Hollywood! I'll be back home before you know it....until then keep checking back daily for more adventures.

xoxo
Sarah

I'll Post the magazine shots tomorrow because my stupid head forgot them in the car! Below are some shots that were taken a week ago with Dawn Derbyshire and Make up by Adrienne Pace. Both ladies are super talented.

The day of travels...

 

I'm sitting at the Pittsburgh airport waiting to board my plane. I'm heading back to Europe today, which means heading back to long hours of work, no sleep, sweating, brusing and a hell of a lot of good times. I'm touring for the next 4 weeks and I can't wait. Touring takes so much out of you but gives you so much more back. I can't wait to meet all of tthe new faces and see the new places. Ummm why did I sound like a lame Dr. Suess? Europe here I come!!!!!!

Today is also my baby Hollywood's birthday!! She's 2 years old, ugh how they grow up so fast. I'm pretty bummed I had to leave her but she has a whole new set of sqeaker toys and treats to play with. Happy Birthday Hollywood!







Dawn Derbyshire my good friend and badass photographer took this picture of Hollywood a few months back. It continues to be on of my favorites!

Here are some pics I recieved from Ms Ashlee Gray from our January 2010 shoot. I really love the colors in these. It's all behind the eyes...

xoxo

Sarah

Rainbow Vomit.

Dawn finally has come back to Pittsburgh! I finally got my creative buddy back. She came over the other day and what did we do? We shot, shot and shot and ate, ate and ate. We also used a lot of color in a few shots....which is totally out of the norm for us. We consume ourselves in black...and usually that's my staple! The next outfit we managed to get back to black :-). When we went to the waterfall.....I saw a snake. This snake was about 6 inches long, but that didn't stop me from running away screaming and almost knocking a girl out. I might look and act tough, but if a snake happens to cross my path I resort back to scared child. This was the outcome....

Pure awesomeness.

So glad to have you back Dawn Derbyshire :-) 

xoxo
Sarah

La Vie Boheme

It's been a few weeks since I've been back to the States. I've finally recovered and I am sooo ready to go back. Here are some pictures of some in Studio with my man Urs. We re recorded and mixed "Absolutely Nothing" so it's more in tune with the European radio. I apologize for this being so late! Like they say....better late than never!

I've been playing RENT all day today. The music never gets old....and it sends such a great message. I went to the musical a few years ago and it was amazing. I hope to see it again one day :-)

No day but today......

XOXO
Sarah