Just Me

My mind is racing at super sonic speed right now. I have so many things I want to write and say but I feel like I should keep it short. I have had so much great news in the past few days concerning the Eurovision contest. What a scary and honorable thing it is to be even in the running of this prestigious contest. Television stations and newspapers are writing about "Me." I'm an American coming into to their territory and going into one of their contests. Mind you that I wrote and recorded all of my new music in Europe...it's still such an honor because I'm an outsider. I was thinking a lot about how I feel about that...and my answer to you is that I am not an outsider. I came to Europe for a reason, fate to me by the hand and led me there. I'm connected to Europe and the people there especially all of my dear friends in Switzerland. Being on the Coole Schule tour was one of the best experiences I've ever had, I have never felt more connected and accepted by a group of people before. So me an outsider? No way. The Eurovision contest is right where I belong. So I am hoping all of you accept me as the silly American as I am, because all I am being is "Just Me."

I love all of you so much. Thank you thank you thank you for the support and encouraging words. You guys are the ones that keeps me pushing and dreaming and always wanting more out of life.
A BIG thank you goes out to 20 minuten and The Eurovision Times...thanks for writing about little old controversial me. You guys are badass!

XOXO
Sarah
(And for all of you that didn't know my song "Just Me" is the song that was submitted!)

Don't...

Don’t hold strong opinions about things you don’t understand.

Devil woman.

Tried to sleep and failed. This insomnia keeps getting worse. Oh well more time to work. I guess Santa gave me my present early this year when I asked for more hours in the day. He granted me the gift of no sleep.
I just restored my account today on Formspring…not sure why. I use to always think its lame because there is always some coward behind the computer screen waiting to ask messed up questions. Today was the first time I received such a lame statement…. It wasn’t even a Question.

Q: Posing with a cross and dressing like a Devil is costing you a one way ticket to Hell. 

A: Wow. Really?? First off I have never dressed up as a Devil and posing with a cross isn’t sending me anywhere. Who are you to judge me? God himself? I highly doubt it.

Again I don’t own anyone on this planet anything. Haters gonna hate..always. Enjoy my Devil worshiping pics below. I worked with the amazing Laura Dark in Columbus on these. She is a one of a kind woman and somehow I really think we’re related. :)

Okay back to work on this thing called sleep.

Oh hell yesss!

25 to life.

I went to bed super early tonight (early meaning 10pm) and now I’m up at 2am. My little head is racing with thoughts as usual. Sometimes I let people get to me more than I should, but it takes me only a moment to realize I don’t own an explaination to anyone. If they are that pretentious to think I would spend anytime writing such to them…they are wrong. My time and worth are precious. I’m not about to let any idiots let me think otherwise. I work too hard and for too long and have seen way too much.So…Don’t be a silly head!

And what i mean is that i will no longer let you control me
so you better hear me out this much you owe me
i gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while Ive stayed
thankful all the way this is how i f**king get repaid.

Oh Eminem you stole the words right from my purdy little mouth.
Okay I’m going to bed….I have to get up super early for a shoot tomorrow with Dawn. Yes, it is going to be epic.

Me & you

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we’re really not that different, me and you.

Finally free.

Most of you know and most of you don't know that about a month ago I was able to quit my part time job. I have been dreaming of that day ever since I was on Idol. Money was always an issue....never enough. Is it ever? Finally I can now concentrate on all of my artistic ventures. ...my music, writing, modeling and whatever else I have dreamed up in my little head. The music is what brings me to life and I finally feel fully alive knowing I'm getting even closer. A few days ago I found out that I am in the final running of Eurovision Song contest. Soon the contest will be open to the public and then you guys can vote....then if I'm lucky enough I will be on the televised part. It's a pretty good thing I believe in myself and I know great things are to come.


I've been shooting a lot lately but I haven't really posted anything. I guess in my heart I just wanted a break from things. I wanted to fully enjoy my first month off and take some time for myself and family. Now I have an energy like you wouldn't believe.

Here's a shoot I did in East Palestine, Ohio. It was a very interesting shoot...how can such a beautiful place inhabit such ugly things? Dawn Derbyshire did the photos, as always she did an incredible job.